While I try to stay positive as much as possible, it's not all sunshine and rainbows. It kinda sucks that I am fighting cancer during a pandemic and can't have my friends and family around. I think I miss hugs the most. I know there are so many people supporting me on this journey buts it's hard to feel sometimes. I guess that's partly why I post so publicly; sharing each step of the way means that I'm not alone when I'm alone.
This has also been a challenge for close friends and family. One of my initial thoughts was how is my situation going to make the people around me feel. I am the most happy when I can make others happy. Finding the words to explain my diagnosis was quite the task. Having to tell the people I love that I will be fine and stay strong when I am shaking inside... not easy.
I have learned who I can actually rely on when things get rough. Actions speak louder than words and I am more perceptive these days. The little things mean more. Words feel different. Conversations have more meaning. Life has very much changed.
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